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why aren’t you listening to guthrie govan right now?

look, guys. i know you have your own individual and relevant tastes in music. that’s okay, it’s what makes america great: the right of choice. but if you people aren’t listening to Guthrie Govan’s Erotic Cakes, you’re missing out BIG time. here are a few irrefutable facts that will invariably lead to you going to your local record store and buying ten copies of this album.

1. the album is named ‘erotic cakes’

how much more edgy can you get? it’s sexy, delicious, and when it comes down to it, everybody loves cake, no matter what it’s shaped like.

2. it’s an ear-pleaser

this album is about as smooth as the smoothest thing you’ve ever experienced, times 100. minus four. plus 12 billion. yeah. that smooth.

3. i like it, therefore anybody with any kind of sophistication will like it too

i don’t mean to talk myself up too much, but i do have better music taste than all of you, and you could all learn a thing or two by paying attention to what i’m listening to on a daily basis. this is really a kind of charity i’m doing here, giving you the heads-up on a solid album that you would have never thought to get yourself. you’re welcome.

so there you have it, if you’re not completely convinced that you should go buy this album twenty times over, you’re illiterate. but fret not, because in this age of information i can convince you with the power of youtube:

go get this album, and then feel free to email me your thanks. i’ll be happy to receive them.


i never thought there was this much to think about

like i said before, i’ve been on overdrive lately.

first off, i’ve been trying to finally kick this cigarette habit. last week i was smoking two or three cigs a day, and i was feeling really good about it, but now i’m back to five or six per day, which is considerably higher (if you’re me). i’ve been smoking cigarettes habitually since i got here in 2008, and i’ll admit, at first it was awesome. cigarettes made me think i looked cool, gave me an ‘in’ with a lot of random people who also smoked (which was good for a freshman) and i never thought i’d be smoking for a long time. now it’s nearly four years later, and i’m sick of them. they smell like shit, taste like shit, and cost a shit ton of money (shit!). not to mention my loss of lung capacity. it’s pathetic. and for what? a few minutes of boredom alleviated? are cigarettes actually interesting? am i any less bored smoking than not?

so even though it’s somewhat cliche and contrived, i’m ‘cutting back’ on my smoking, with the intention of complete cessation by summertime. i’m interested to see what happens, aren’t you?!?!11//?!

i didn’t mean to talk that much about smoking. i was really hoping to get into some of the philosophy i’ve been reading and listening to recently.

but now i’m reconsidering

because there’s just too damn much.

and writing about it all in one sitting would be wack. plus i’m hungry and the heat from my laptop is searing my thighs.

so.. email me if youve got any smoking cessation success stories or tips!

making myself vulnerable

lately I’ve been reading. a lot.

i suppose that’s part of the reason i haven’t written in a while; after reading brilliant philosophy or listening to an enthralling lecture, it’s hard to write anything of your own.

that being said, i want to get back to writing, and i’m going to start by talking about Dr. Brené Brown and her lectures at TED. (found here and here)

in these talks, i found a certain resonance with one of the things Brown said about depression; that in nearly all cases, it is brought on by shame. shame is the voice telling you that you’re not smart enough, good enough, strong enough, pretty enough. shame is the one telling you you’re not worthy.

shame resonates differently with men than it does with women. women are constantly under societal pressure to “do it all, do it well, and never let them see you sweat.” as well as constant bombardment from advertisements and pop culture about what the perfect female should look like. men only have one societal mantra: never be perceived as weak.

we’ve all felt some sort of shame before, and it is always born in vulnerability. when people are vulnerable, they’re completely undefended, completely helpless. while vulnerability can lead to shame and depression and heartbreak, vulnerability is also the birthplace of love, of empathy and of connection.

when people are open with each other and not afraid to be vulnerable, connections and empathy are free to form. and despite the misconception that vulnerability is weakness, it exudes an inner strength that is unparalleled by veiled actions and shameful avoidance of vulnerability.

i think one of the reasons i haven’t blogged in a while is because i realized how vulnerable it really made me. i felt shame when i thought about all the emotionally charged posts i made public, and it made me want to avoid writing any more. all kinds of different people can come onto this page and read what i’ve written, and they could potentially ruin me or humiliate me using my own words. but in being vulnerable and writing what feels right, i only hope to promote more empathy and connection. i hope that somebody feels the same way i do, so they can know they aren’t alone out there. being open and defenseless can be hard, sometimes excruciatingly so, but it’s the only way we can connect with each other.

i hope you watch and enjoy the two videos above, i did. knowing the destructive thought patterns that occur in your head is the first step; making those thoughts known. i’m going to do more in my life to promote vulnerability (hopefully), starting with this.

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